Healing

I have reached another step in this long healing process. My aunt died of cancer in 2003, and that has driven me to try to help others in similar situations in any way i think i can. When i found out about Relay for Life i realised i could do so much more in helping people come to terms with the severity of this disease while having fun and communicating to others their own ordeal and how to get through it. My first relay was in 2006, and i broke down as i wrote my aunt's name on the paper bag in which a candle would be placed in her memory. The following year i cried again as i frantically searched the track for her candle as i reached extremely late and was not able to place it myself. I found it just as the ceremony started and struggled with myself to calm down. This year, even though i arrived later than i had wanted, had time to go around slowly in search of the candle. This year there were no tears. This year i was just happy that i was able to make 4 survivors happy, 2 more than last year, by simply inviting them to the event, picking up their "kit" and introducing them to the family of survivors. They all share that special bond, fighting against fear that their bodies will give up the fight one day.
Many people walk that track for different reasons, some are so grateful for the fact that they can walk as they remember when chemo made them feeble. Others use it as a way to exercise through the night. I walk cause i know my aunt would have been right there with me chattin and askin me who's the new one in my life and tellin me if she approve.
There are times i get upset because others don't seem to care or to understand why I get so worked up over Relay for Life, but then i stop and pray that they never understand where i'm coming from, because that would mean them going through the pain i went through, and i wish that on no one. So until there's a cure, i'll continue the fight, the walk, even if i do it alone, just to help someone else reach the point of "no more tears". It is worth it.

P.S. Thanks to those that walked with me over the years, u made the process a bit easier... and crazier :)