Thoughts floating...disjointed

My policy of i can't hate anyone makes me not fit into the profile that would work in everyone's lives. "Why doesn't she hate me?" For what, that is extra time that i don't have right now. LOL and thats the problem..too darn cold-hearted. Cold-hearted ppl have no feelings, no emotion, no hate. Its so much easier to deal with someone that outright hates you than someone who seemingly does not care.
But how can i think i'm cold when i care about everyone. How does someone say i'm cold and then in the same breath say i sound like the mommy of everyone..like always? The real problem..they can't map me out, they don't know what to expect. Expect me to treat you with the respect u deserve, expect me to trouble u as long as u live, expect that i will never hate you unless u kill a family member, expect me to honour your friendship for life. Thats all i know, cause with me, i never really know what to expect.
Question is how would mommy deal with this new development? Round table talk gonna happen soon, hope she listens to us. If she ever knew the amount of prayers goin up for her...She needs us, she just refuses to reach out. Stubborn! What can i do? ARRGH Frustration kicks in.
It was good tho, i must say that today i am happy :)