Single 4 Life ??

It has indeed been a long time since i have confused u guys with the crazy thoughts that go thru my mind, but this latest philosophy of mine needed ironing out:S
Many ppl have seen "Single 4 Life" as my MSN personal message and have asked me the meaning behind it. So here goes my feeble attempt to explain it.
A year and a half ago i stepped into the World of Singledom. It was a very colourful world with a lot of nice attractions but its major drawback(which was supposed to be a plus) was that it had no safety walls or confinement that my other world had. My sense of security was now gone. I was now susceptible to all sorts of trash that found their way over into this world. The trash many times didn't even have to belong to the Single World, in fact, some even belonged to the World of Marriage! But that is another story.
Now being in this world so different than what i was used to i got a bit confused. Suddenly i was not sure what it was that i was looking for in a relationship or in a guy for that matter, or so it seemed. It is strange b/c i have been here before, but i cannot remember what i did to survive this level. Well, as time went on i realised that this place is nothing but a big maze. Every turn off that seems like a way out is in fact a DEAD END! (How can a place with no walls have dead ends???) Each dead end resulted in me getting hurt. The more i try, the more i get hurt. So then i reached the point "why am i doing this to myself? STOP!" A few friends offered words of advice "don't give up" but as hard as i tried i couldn't convince them that it wasn't really giving up, i was re-thinking my strategy and approach to each situation.
Here's what i think is actually happening. Every time i think i reach the exit i anticipate too much before i even get there. What i need to do is assess my surroundings. What here looks similar to a previously failed attempt? What have i been doing wrong before? I have always been looking at the problems that this world presents but never at the problems i have brought with me.
So ....Single 4 Life is how i feel being trapped in this maze. It feels like this will be a lifelong journey to find ...??.. happiness, i guess. Single is what i will remain until i figure out what i am doing wrong and how to learn from my previous mistakes instead of jumping into another set of problems. Life is what i will enjoy in this world because unlike other worlds, this one actually does not take that much work to maintain. Not to worry, i will find my way, one day, but it's just not today. Today i sit back and enjoy the view :D